faded words from glossy world...

Time brings changes, I accept with my all heart. I have no doubt over this fact. But then there are certain things that really bother you even if you try hard to make it go so simple to understand yourself and others. That is our tiny little heart which handles every gigantic problem with its modesty.

Our heart plays a lead role in bringing whatever we have so far in our life. Our heart leads us to every single change that we accept with wide open arms and have to accept it unwillingly when it’s bitter to face.

Our heart changes with time too. Heart goes with time and its modesty making everyone unknown of what it is going through.

When our heart stands the single reason of bringing the wreckages in anything, at same time it is the main cause of bringing the enlightenments in a positive way.

All and all what I am trying to say is….our heart is what we stand today?

Time travels in its own speed making us unaware of how fast we have reached the time where sometimes we regret and smile with its cherishing moments too. My dear friend always complained me about thinking too deep about everything. She would always yell and I accept for the goodness that why do I think over a small matter to the deepest and why do I waste my time repeating it.

I am not denying the fact that I think too much over a subject or a matter. Yes, I do it still now and I have always been doing that. I even tried to avoid it by setting it in my New Year resolution to eliminate this ‘deep thinking’ matter forever but I failed. I realized this when I woke up this morning,

                                                                                       Time: 7; 30 am

                                                                                       Date: 21/2/2011

Ok fine, I do not like this fact that I think too much. I know and I accept it. There is a reason behind accepting this fact; I was having a short conversation with a person over nothing. It was a simple and gentle talk that normally we encounter in a simple way. In the middle of the conversation, that person took this time and pronounced; well Lhamo, don’t think too much. If I could play a double role person like in movie, I would definitely stand opposite to myself and would squint at myself. Pheww   …just a part of imagination.

I am little agitated with this fact that I think too much. I wish I could vanish in the nocturnal eyes and came out in the dusk, leaving this subject over somewhere. I might sound like I am grumbling over this fact but then I say …no I would rather say like I am little anxious that how the people can easily notice this fact out of me. This is completely like shitty shit…I am sorry for my words. This is what came in my mind and I am not able to act modest right at the moment.

I wish If I could have a tactics that people won’t notice this out of me. Because I sometimes get exasperated when out of sudden people come with their suggestions which I am not able to welcome with my heart.

I am not nonplussed. I know what I have to do. I am putting these words which were rushing in my mind like the thousands of Ants are digging the earth.

Now I swatted this subject from my mind by putting it through the help of words which will not come back to me again.

Smile to Life!