Deja Vu days...

'Sometimes there is nothing you want to write, you feel the feeling of being timid and get drowned in the ocean of your thoughts....'

Mashutzo Writes.

darkness....

Walked few steps,
reached nowhere,
touched something,
Felt nothing but only darkness.

Mashutzo Writes.

Lost soul in the crowded and noisy city..........

Lay back evening at the corner of crowded and noisy city I go thinking if I am the only one feeling delicate.

Half of the city covered in the blanket of darkness, I go wondering if I am the only lost-soul.

Lightening the only cigarette from the box, i whispered ‘Life is nothing but a fucked up smokes and Ashes’.

Mashutzo Writes.

An ordinary MONDAY with Fries and Tea...

Yet another ordinary Monday, on the crowded streets of Thamel and I go observing everything around me.

I am walking and viewing everything taking place near to me.

I made myself comfortable on the plastic chair at BK’s chips, sipped the Nepali masala tea and each piece of the fries just made me write something about everything that was taking place around me. I saw four young guys gathered on the next table…young and full bright smiles, I heard the laughter’s and their jokes that grabbed my attention. I Looked at the and remembered my days with my good friends in the same place and almost the same surrounding but the time has changed.  Laughing out loud without caring what the people are going to think and say, this is what I call a bond of friends. Counting each wrinkled note and coming up to the bill to pay together happens always…

I remember my days with friends. somewhere down the line,I badly miss those amazing days when a note of hundred rupees brought million dollars of good times together.

Mashutzo Writes..

Hide and Seek game...

I feel good to see people dropping tears and when they pass out their emotions through tears. I find them timely; at least they can express what they are going through, through all those drops of tears. I mean isn't that great that you can show your emotions, feelings and your concerns through tears.

Every now and then,

The salty drops of water cover the eyes, where it seems hard to hold them tight. I call them tears…

While wondering why all these unstoppable tears love my dry cheeks so dearly,

I run my fingers through the dry skin, with the fear of being observed by the unknown eyes.

I smartly pull the end of my sleeves with my hands and wipe them all…

Have to work it this way,

And I call this yet another day of hide and seek.

Mashutzo Writes.

i store everything in a photograph and i smile recalling the moments.....

i have a picture of myself in my own imagination,
every place i walk,
Everything i eat,
everything i do,
every word i utter,

every action i am involved,
every sin i attempt,
every wise thoughts i plant,
every tear i hide,
every happiness i capture,
every plan i make,
every decision i take,
every people i get in connect with,
every smile i store..

And at the end of the day, i recall everything..
then i sometimes have the pleasant sleep and sometimes i am stunned...

 — at Siddhipur,lalitpur.


Mashutzo Writes.

No clues...

I paused my life for a second.
I found myself Quiet.
I had no words to say to myself.
I was trying to listen if there was something coming from within me.
I heard nothing.
I saw no signs of any conversation within me.
I paused “My-Life” for a minute more, then waited for a voice to guide me.
But again hushed air saddened me with no clues……

Mashutzo Writes.

Each morning is a New Morning..

This is a restricted place where only Armies are found on duties whether it’s late night or early morning. Just took out my phone and captured him, He knew I was capturing him from the distance.

I see the whole world out there but guess none can Witness where I stand in this huge world....
only I know, Yes I know where I stand and that's what makes it important to me to understand with the time.

Time: 6:00 am.
Date: 15th/9/2012 Saturday.

Mashutzo Writes.

Random thought on a piece of napkin...

One thing that rolls in woman’s heart about man are certainly “Is he strong enough to be my man to cherish this life from a different approach”.

A woman goes thinking hard “alright all and all a strong-man desires is a wise, homely and loving woman beside him to keep the pace with him if he stumbles”

But how fool of her is that; she lately comprehends the fact that all he wanted was a muted, deaf but beautiful Dummy.

I-was having dinner in one of the regular restaurant in Thamel. When something was going in my mind like ufff i can't even put in the form of words, then i quickly took the napkin and searched for the pen then started to jot them down before i go forgetting everything when i am in-front of the laptop to post something in my blog and it had happened many times. This is the reason why i always keep a pen in my make-up kit.

Venue-Hankook Sarang, Thamel.

Date-14/8/2012.

Time- 8 pm.

Mashutzo Writes.

Strange everywhere~

Everything seems strange.
why????
May be because I am strange…
May be the people around me are strange…
May be I am close by a strange surrounding….
May be Strange thoughts are haunting me…
May be strange is there because everything was totally strange from the very beginning….

Strange people,
Strange behaviors,
Strange characters,
Strange thinking,
Strange views,
Strange everything,

Everything is Strange. Totally strange; it seems peculiar to me all of sudden now. Yes, everything is weird around me, the people and everything related to the people. I hate the fact that everything around me is going thoroughly weird not wonderful.

Mashutzo writes.

is love blind......????

“Love is blind ho rey yaar, kya thees cha keti ta, malai ta wakka lagcha.” A random line I heard two friends talking, when I swiftly passed by them and positively made me think if it was.

Some give up families, friends, relatives, tradition and everything to forge a new modern life based on LOVE. There seems no way to correct it, no way to stop it.

People do every crazy way to keep their love with themselves. People who are in love are all ready to give up their own life for the person they love. Am I exaggerating here?? I guess I am. Making it short and sweet, I mean to say that people who are madly in love can do anything, yes I said anything.

Love brings smile on the face; love brings energy to keep the bond exceptionally beautiful. I agree with this fact that love beautifies everyone’s life in special way. People who are in love sees everything beautiful, they feel wonderful like never before, they will take care of themselves as there is no tomorrow, they becomes conscious of how to present themselves in front of the person their heart melts, love makes them to do special on their love’s special day like birthday just to witness the surprised face of their love. Love, love, love, love, love, seems like love has the strongest power of anything. Everything has reason and love has its own reason which makes people go crazy.

There seems no stopping when it comes to the point of loving your love and wanting to keep that bond with you stronger like no one can dare to raise a doubt about it. Sometimes people go to an extreme level of test to prove their love for one particular person and some even gets stand to their test with appreciations for their bond which is good for its own reason.  Yes, it’s good.  You feel like winner when people around you admire your wills for your love. You feel like ‘yes you have got it all and Smile with a great satisfaction gazing at the result of the beautiful bond you have achieved, but have ever tried to think for a moment that you are the one and only reason of bringing the continuous tears around some people who were once the most desirable people in your life??

Nothing seems to work when you are badly in love; nothing seems to work to change your mind, the advices from your dear ones seems like the bitterest poison, every single section seems like the piercing pain when everyone goes against your new attachment. You feel like running all away just to be with the person you admire and leaving all those bonds that you already have with you. This is why people call; love has its own reason of craziness.

I have heard a dialogue in movie once “ maine tumhare liye dhan, ayesho-aram yaha tak ki apne ma bap ko hi chod diya” (I left my wealth behind, the luxury and even my parents behind just for you)

Isn’t this insane??

My very good friend told me a story of a monk who appeared out of blue in a restaurant when we were waiting for our sandwich, average height of around 5’9 stood in front of us and smiled to my friend.  She smiled him back. Later she told me that the monk was a normal man who once had a family and he loved his wife madly but all of sudden she left him. There the guy being in the state of depression and fed of life he chose to be a monk the rest of his life. He is a monk now. Every time I see him, this thought strokes me; does the woman who left him have any about this fact of the man who was once her half life is now a monk? Will she ever care to give a reaction to this outcome of her movement?  Will she ever try to give an explanations or any sort of apology will come in the days???? Whenever I think of this man, I mean this monk a cool breeze of fear runs through my thoughts and I get hang up for a while gasping with discomfort and again think is this all now, this is what w call a love is, or this is a negative creation of love, whatever at the end its always the same emotion people go through.

Just like the above story, What if the person behind all your craziness doesn’t understands you in anyway?

What if that person always complains and complains beside all your hardships that you have placed for this only happiness of yours?

What if the love which is the major reason of your craziness suddenly leaves you alone, then what? What goes in your mind, what you will do and what will be your situation then?

Depressions, regret, suicide, revenge or forgetting everything behind and starting a new life with a new you is all you have??? And is it that simple as the story of the monk. I bet not.

There is nothing like a regret that will remind you time and again that you are alive and alive with certain mistakes you have done in your life. Learn to love the love with modesty without bringing any tears to your dears when you are totally lost in a new happiness. I personally and strongly believe in it, and I am sure every one of you too after all Being loved and being in love is beautiful and it’s perfect when you have the right person to share that special attachment of love till the end of your life with respect for all.

What say???

Smile to life J

do you see anything else beside love now???

is love really blind???? lol

Life is beautiful!!!

night view of the ktm vally from Shivapuri Natinal park....

Looking at the twinkling stars, I can see myself up there in the dark sky with the sparkling stars dancing among them in my own world where no one can interrupt me at all. It is sometimes fascinating to find yourself in the world of imagination.

Out of blue, I see my past again, my upcoming days, my life and my passions that flashes out right in front of my eyes. My mind engaged in recreation of a reality Act. Everything haunts as if I am watching a theatre live show where I don’t have to pay at any cost. I see the faces of my friends and my dears they reminds me of happy gone days, weeping moments, sad times and the confused conditions where I found myself hard to take a single breath I have some beautiful unforgettable moments in my life; somehow they never failed to bring the spark of happiness in my eyes.

The stamping of my feet smashes all the ill memories I have carried so far and I dared to conceal them not to return back again. It’s good to experience so much in life randomly coming my way though I never welcome them from my heart.

 I feel it is crucial to mention this here that life is undeniably beautiful if you know how to lead to live a life. If you know the meaning of bringing smile on others face. Life is indeed beautiful if you utilize the time in a right way along with the journey of your life. Life is beautiful if you know how to give happiness keeping the smile of satisfaction on your face. Life is beautiful if you know how to have fun and how to laugh making others laugh along with you. You feel like playing with the colors and you see everything colorful around you. Then, you will say, indeed life is beautiful without a doubt.

Smile to Life J