Friday, December 30, 2011

New Year and My Birthday!

My birthday is around. No matter how much I try to avoid thinking about it, it keeps coming on my mind. I have heard people saying, I don’t want to do anything this time on my birthday and so did I say it a few days before to my dear ones. But honestly speaking, there is something that is popping in my mind and I feel like having fun with fullest this birthday.
My birthday is on 1st of January, therefore a New Year at the same time. I know I have double reason to celebrate this day with lots of love and crazy things to bring in life but there is a bit of fear in my mind thinking over the plan that I have with me. I am thinking to do bungee at the last resort in Tatopani but have to make everything possible, or how about getting inked on my palm or shall I go for paragliding again. I will be wasting money, but then its worth doing paragliding, Arrggg I am confused.
Last year birthday, I landed in Reggae bar out of plan after the dinner with my dears. I did miss one of my very close friends Tsering on that day as she was fond of the place too and it had been just a month that she left for Canada. All and all the music and my friends presence made me feel first-class. A glass of white Russian was enough for me. kelsang ,sewan, my sister, tenkelsang, dorjee we were like crazy singing along with the band members.
It will be a year by few days that I still didn’t get gift from my friend Kelsang and Sewan, hahahah. It’s in pending so that I will get double this year. Hello kelsang and sewan did you guys hear me?????
Well I thought to welcome Dr Marten’s mary jane shoes this year to start my new year with a new shoes but it didn’t work and even thought about getting it through shipping but it really cost close to hell. And I can’t pay that living in Nepal. So friends’, shipping is kind of expensive if you are thinking about buying something online hai. Let’s see what I will be doing this year, I may end up posting a new post in my blog staying home and going for a dinner with Family. But still there are plans dancing in my mind and bit confused too….
Khoi k garum k garum, ??
Tara kehi ta pakki garnu parcha jasto cha, tara k,..????? L

lost in the fear lol..

i was literally shaking and couldn't hear him giving me instructions...bad bad me..

There i Go Finally leaving all the fears behind, my friend kelsang captured the moment i couldn't do anyway!

There i was talking with the pilot with so much of anxieties..

i managed to look smiling here but then,

There i was feeling Dizzy and i feel like ok now this is done! but i enjoyed thoroughly the time flying like a bird.. 
Pokhara is not only about Lakeside tourist bling bling place, its about beauty of nature and i love this particular place, 45 minutes away from Lakeside on boat! and it will cost you 500 rupees, but its worth going to this place! <3

Smile to Life.

Friday, December 23, 2011

is love blind......????

“Love is blind ho rey yaar, kya thees cha keti ta, malai ta wakka lagcha.” A random line I heard two friends talking, when I swiftly passed by them and positively made me think if it was.
Some give up families, friends, relatives, tradition and everything to forge a new modern life based on LOVE. There seems no way to correct it, no way to stop it.
People do every crazy way to keep their love with themselves. People who are in love are all ready to give up their own life for the person they love. Am I exaggerating here?? I guess I am. Making it short and sweet, I mean to say that people who are madly in love can do anything, yes I said anything.
Love brings smile on the face; love brings energy to keep the bond exceptionally beautiful. I agree with this fact that love beautifies everyone’s life in special way. People who are in love sees everything beautiful, they feel wonderful like never before, they will take care of themselves as there is no tomorrow, they becomes conscious of how to present themselves in front of the person their heart melts, love makes them to do special on their love’s special day like birthday just to witness the surprised face of their love. Love, love, love, love, love, seems like love has the strongest power of anything. Everything has reason and love has its own reason which makes people go crazy.
There seems no stopping when it comes to the point of loving your love and wanting to keep that bond with you stronger like no one can dare to raise a doubt about it. Sometimes people go to an extreme level of test to prove their love for one particular person and some even gets stand to their test with appreciations for their bond which is good for its own reason.  Yes, it’s good.  You feel like winner when people around you admire your wills for your love. You feel like ‘yes you have got it all and Smile with a great satisfaction gazing at the result of the beautiful bond you have achieved, but have ever tried to think for a moment that you are the one and only reason of bringing the continuous tears around some people who were once the most desirable people in your life??
Nothing seems to work when you are badly in love; nothing seems to work to change your mind, the advices from your dear ones seems like the bitterest poison, every single section seems like the piercing pain when everyone goes against your new attachment. You feel like running all away just to be with the person you admire and leaving all those bonds that you already have with you. This is why people call; love has its own reason of craziness.
I have heard a dialogue in movie once “ maine tumhare liye dhan, ayesho-aram yaha tak ki apne ma bap ko hi chod diya” (I left my wealth behind, the luxury and even my parents behind just for you)
Isn’t this insane??
My very good friend told me a story of a monk who appeared out of blue in a restaurant when we were waiting for our sandwich, average height of around 5’9 stood in front of us and smiled to my friend.  She smiled him back. Later she told me that the monk was a normal man who once had a family and he loved his wife madly but all of sudden she left him. There the guy being in the state of depression and fed of life he chose to be a monk the rest of his life. He is a monk now. Every time I see him, this thought strokes me; does the woman who left him have any about this fact of the man who was once her half life is now a monk? Will she ever care to give a reaction to this outcome of her movement?  Will she ever try to give an explanations or any sort of apology will come in the days???? Whenever I think of this man, I mean this monk a cool breeze of fear runs through my thoughts and I get hang up for a while gasping with discomfort and again think is this all now, this is what w call a love is, or this is a negative creation of love, whatever at the end its always the same emotion people go through.
Just like the above story, What if the person behind all your craziness doesn’t understands you in anyway?
What if that person always complains and complains beside all your hardships that you have placed for this only happiness of yours?
What if the love which is the major reason of your craziness suddenly leaves you alone, then what? What goes in your mind, what you will do and what will be your situation then?
Depressions, regret, suicide, revenge or forgetting everything behind and starting a new life with a new you is all you have??? And is it that simple as the story of the monk. I bet not.
There is nothing like a regret that will remind you time and again that you are alive and alive with certain mistakes you have done in your life. Learn to love the love with modesty without bringing any tears to your dears when you are totally lost in a new happiness. I personally and strongly believe in it, and I am sure every one of you too after all Being loved and being in love is beautiful and it’s perfect when you have the right person to share that special attachment of love till the end of your life with respect for all.
What say???
Smile to life J

do you see anything else beside love now???

is love really blind???? lol

Thursday, December 15, 2011

~thoughts of the day~

i love the all these different shirts...

something that will remain within me~

Today here I am going to write about what I literally think of being a youth and most importantly being a Tibetan among you dear Tibetan. This is going to be only my personal views and my individual thoughts as a Tibetan living in between the country I was born and brought up. I was born in Dehradun India and brought up in Kathmandu, Nepal.
Sounds interesting right, a Tibetan who was born in India and brought up in Nepal. I am sure there are many cases like mine whose identity is related between three countries i.e.  Nepal, India and Yes Tibet.
I belong to a normal Tibetan khampa family who holds this special place for our one and only ‘His Holiness the Dalai lama’. I remember my parents once telling me when I was a kid, Kundun “H.H. the Dalai Lama” is only what we Tibetans have, so consider him as your God, your master, your parents and pay all the respect and esteem to him for our sake. But never felt the words validate until I first had an audience with the Dalai Lama in Darjeeling Sonada during my primary school days. Like every other young school students, I was giggling and playing with my peers in the queue to welcome our Kundun.  At that time, all I could see was a man covered in red clothes and his both hands folded, turning to the people with this Smile (smile which is beyond my description when I am writing this). All I saw was a man in red dress smiling at us, and there I go, I was shedding tears instantly. What were the tears for?? That was the only question rising and falling within me but there was nobody to answer my one single question as I was asking the question within me and to myself only.
“Kundun ‘H.H. the Dalai Lama’ is only what we Tibetans have”. The words sparked back my memories and I was truly smiling then. That very moment I knew what my parents wanted to make me understand. Dalai Lama has a special place in every Tibetan’s heart; it’s the undeniable fact from the history of Tibet till now. I have a strong belief in my Kundun, on our Dalai Lama and the belief certainly suggests me to stand as a fine citizen of Tibet, to everyone who has faith in him. But the question arises, are you standing as a fine Tibetan in the society? Are you?
When I was in school our Tibetan teachers would always come up with the guidance to study hard, to do good deeds for the country, to earn name in the society by being a fine Tibetan, then they would conclude their advice with the line “you children should never forget that you are the future seeds of Tibet” you got it students?                                                                                                                     
                                                      Other than anything, we would, at that time, nod our head as an obedient follower and sanction our teacher’s piece of advice.
Do you ever remember yourself considered as the future seeds of Tibet?? Well I do, and I am sure every Tibetans are closely familiar with this. So what are “Future seeds of Tibet” and where are the future seeds of Tibet now?
It is a high time to think over this fact and remember this as a responsibility that every individual holds; but it’s your own choice if you take this responsibility, fake it or just leave it. 
“You are the future seeds of Tibet” The lines still haunts me whenever I attend a function or any gathering around the Tibetan community and it did, once again recently when I was there in the monastery to attend an important day for our people to celebrate. The expressions of the words are still as fresh as it was once when whispered to my ears. And today, I hear them all over again. I start to grow uneasy inside thinking over the thoughts that runs like a never-stopping-marathon-race and the question beeps again “What am I doing being a Tibetan in a free country where we have the right to speak, make a movement to salvation and when we still have doors to knock to hear our words of  truth?” I swear I feel disheartened when I realize that the future seeds of once upon a time still has not made it to a plant.
And the time is approaching near to pass the same saying to the coming generation. I am afraid if this is going to be a never ending trade. I may not be wrong if I question how long is it going to continue to bypass the saying and how long we are going to wait for the future seeds to make it into a concrete tree and give shelter of wisdom. Question approaches when?
I see people wearing Tibetan slogans of shirts, caps and even  bags in the midst of crowd, I feel delighted but again another question makes yet another place in my crammed thoughts;  do u think that will affect in the mind of the people or will it ever bring better shape to the current situation of country? Or this act of wearing some slogans around the places is the only attempt to your country?
It’s very important for you to think about who you are in reality beside all those are branded shoes, clothes, the handsome paying job or whatever you think adds a personality to you. What are you and who are you?
If you think you have earned a name in the society then go in front of the mirror and ask yourself if you have done anything as a Tibetan for your country Tibet? If not then it’s time to think and bring changes in you, me, us and our thinking no matter wherever we are. We should never forget that we are the only “second class citizen” who often forgets our certain Dream of responsibility living as an exile.